Poesy

my emotions often spill out in this form in my head...sometimes some of the emotion and logic is lost from mind to paper, but it is as close as I can get. 

fine print: (these are all written originally by me)

Apathy 

By ESF
It’s everywhere; surrounding me
Silhouettes of a faux reality

Questions aren’t what they seem to be

Infected by a plague called apathy

Seeing this situation in a clear view

Apparent by a transparent, “how are you?”

Caring less about all you say and do

They don’t care what you’ve been through

Do we have anything worth fighting for?

Answer the question but they’re already out the door

Leaving your heart still bruised and sore

Scraping for feeling begging for something more

Searching everywhere even up above

Longing and waiting for someone to care; some one to love

No difference to them between a push and a shove

Not noticing or caring what their hearts are void of

Not caring whether it’s a hello or a goodbye

No contrast if you smile or cry

Yearning for someone to really try

And take the time to look you in the eye

Look and see who is standing there

Acknowledge the spot, that’s now bare

Awake the faculties; be fully aware

Give me a heart that is willing to care

Oh please give me a person with passion, not apathy;

A person who actually cares about you and me.

If you only knew

by:ESF

If you only knew how much I still love you,

Maybe you’d finally want me back.

Perhaps you’d miss me like I miss you,

And with your help we could mend this crack.

If you only knew how much I regret

Or how much I hate that day

I know you would just forgive and forget

And no longer remember the words I did supposedly say.

If you only knew the truth about what I said,

And how much I miss our wonderful past.

You'd help me save this friendship that's almost dead

Because all I was trying to do was make it last.

If you only knew about my little spark of hope,

The one I keep deep down inside,

Then you would want to help me cope

And to dry all the tears I've cried.

If you only knew my pain

The one that tore my heart in two

Those awful words to me that you filled with disdain

then you could know the harm they do.

If you only knew the memories I cherish

Or the pictures I love because they keep you alive

In my heart and dreams and all that I wish

For more memories of you as my friend I strive.

If you only knew how I was affected

From all that has taken place

You would've helped and collected

The broken pieces and tried to mend it face to face.

If you only knew how much I desire 

that it never would've come to an end,

then perhaps you would come to admire

Just how much I still want to be your friend.

Oh, if you only knew,

if you only knew...

Me

by: ESF (villanelle)

I just want to be me

I don't know what to do

To make you see

All I can do or be

I don't want to be you

I just want to be me

Let me go; set me free

I'll give you a clue

To make you see

That there's no we 

how can I construe

I just want to be me

Please listen to my plea

Some explanation is due

To make you see

Why do you disagree

Here is my simple view

I just want to be me

Why can't you agree

That I'll always be true

to make you see

I just want to be me.

Letting Go

 by ESF

Let it go, let it wash down the drain

Let me cry

Cause it don't feel the same

Let me die

So I can't feel the pain

Days go by

My tears fallin like rain

How I try

Just try to stay sane

Don't know why

My heart has been slain

I won't lie

My hope is starting to wane

I must vie

Or this will all be in vain

Gone

By ESF

You didn't stop me from walking out that door
Tell me honestly do you even care anymore?
Cause I honestly don't know
They say if you love someone let them go

But I say if you love someone why don't you make them stay?
Hold them tight don't let them go away
I never wanted to say good bye
All I want to do is cry

I wish I could make you see
I didn't make this choice for me
I really hope you are doing okay
I'll be thinking of you every day

everything I see reminds me of you
you're still there no matter what I do
I never wanted to part
you'll always be in my heart

Maybe one day you'll change your mind
If it's a friend you need I'm not hard to find
My door is alway open; my light is still on
but for now, for you I'm gone...

RESPECT

 by ESF

I had this thought in my mind

that we must always be kind.

You don't know how it will affect

so remember to always respect

each one of your fellow mankind.

Cinquains: by esf

Unique

it's different

from all of others

Curiosity starts now, its

changed.

Crazy

mad with passion

it scares me a little

I try to approach it, but just

Look.

Wonder

fills my young mind

questions, thoughts, and feelings 

How am I to know what is right?

Ask.

Present

happening now

never coming again

What is the time? The time is now

Live.

Haikus: by esf

Sitting in my room

Pondering what to do now

Confusion sets in

Walking on a path

Reflecting back on my life

I wonder what's next

Thinking about you

You're not quite the same right now

I hope it will change

attention-grabbing

out of the ordinary

curiosity

Epigrams: by esf

Irony

I expected one thing, but got another

Thought it was your sister, but instead it was your brother.

Humility

To have no pride was my endeavor,

Now I am the most humble person ever. 

Friendship (definition poem)

by esf

There till the end

time cannot constrain

one can always depend

this will always remain

Always a kind disposition

and if it is really true

it can survive any opposition

or anything its put through

Makes the bad seem good

and the cold seem warm 

everything is always understood

it can help to weather any storm

Comes in handy when in a jam

makes everything more fun

Loves me just the way I am 

With it you're not the only one

Looks like a friendly face and smile

sounds like an enthusiastic "hey"

It makes life more worthwhile

in each and every way

A concept sent from above

one that I 'm blessed to know

it is encircled about with love

no matter where you go

Dear John

by esf

My heart was so broken

I thought it might stay that way

But it was healed with words spoken

You knew just what to say

I was torn apart

But you saw past the hurt

You healed my heart

My love you did convert

I’ll never be the same

I’m so glad we met

And that you came

Into my life I’ll let

Your love shine through

Cause You love me for me

I know you’ll always be true

Thanks for making me see

with love,

Emily Sue